1. |
the circus
02:53
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There’s always the circus we can talk as soon as we reach home
I cant feel a thing I’m not sure if I’m alone
Can you try to explain why I feel empty beneath my bones
I cant feel a thing I’m not sure if I’m alone
And I’ve been following the shadows for far too long
Often left wandering what’s the difference in right and wrong
There’s always the circus we can talk as soon as we reach home
I cant feel a thing I’m not sure if I’m alone
Can you try to explain why I feel empty beneath my bones
I cant feel a thing I’m not sure if I’m alone
I walk aimlessly against the tide often rambling to myself
About the ghosts I’ve entertained the toll they take on my health
There’s always the circus we can talk as soon as we reach home
I cant feel a thing I’m not sure if I’m alone
Can you try to explain why I feel empty beneath my bones
I cant feel a thing I’m not sure if I’m alone
I’m looking for confusion something that can validate
The time that never passes so I can tell if Its already too late
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2. |
sickness
02:55
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The sickness creeps in
A not so distant memory
I can see how this will end
All the pain and misery
Ive felt attached to something that dismantles me
Do you feel trapped? In this repeating symphony
Of dancing with death as you feel so alive
You lose yourself in the depths and this time you may not survive
The walls close in I cant keep up with the time
As the room starts to spin and ive lost touch with my mind
Can you reach me now? Can you tell me who I was
When we figured out how to go on without trust
Its all consuming and Its never enough
Itll drag you down in search of a new kinda drug
Anything to take you away from the want
From the need from the itch from living life on the front
Can you taste the sickness? I can feel it on your tongue
Losing touch with a quickness soon its feel everything or feel numb
Ive fallen for the promise of everything ive ever been missing
But the fleeting bliss isn’t worth the lifetime of nothing
The scales can tip so quickly out of favor
If you so much as slip for one moment it can change forever
The grave is dug deep all its waiting for is your decision
Its getting hard to sleep and I wonder if theres anything im missing
Its all consuming and Its never enough
Itll drag you down in search of a new kinda drug
Anything to take you away from the want
From the need from the itch from living life on the front
And I can feel my heart failing
I can hear my soul screaming
I can feel my mind drifting
Theres nothing left worth believing
Am I still breathing it seems the shadows have a hold
They control my dreaming and the nightmares are getting old
I cant take the conversations that keep happening between my ears
Theres no longer any elation I think its probably been gone for years
And my thoughts carry knives they leave scars on my brain
Ive lived so many lives and caused myself so much pain
I think its finally time to release myself from the cycle
Ive made up my mind its been driving me mad for a while
Its all consuming and Its never enough
Itll drag you down in search of a new kinda drug
Anything to take you away from the want
From the need from the itch from living life on the front
I cant make up my mind and I cant wake up my mind and I cant make up for lost time
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3. |
dreamscape
03:47
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i've been looking for a way to get out from underneath this weight
to lift the vale slowly away from my eyes and leave this dreamscape
the nightmare has its teeth sunk in its pulling me downward again
so tired of all this repetition im looking for a better end
take it or leave it
nothing gets any clearer
am i just an object
reflected in a dirty mirror
the ghosts still sleep so deep inside there's nowhere left for me to hide
so take the shot enjoy the ride let fear fall away now to the wayside
the demons grabbing at my heels try to hold me down but it starts to feel
like the dream might be more real and the edge lifts and it starts to peel
take it or leave it
nothing gets any clearer
am i just an object
reflected in a dirty mirror
reality blends and blurs the lines im not sure if its me this time
theres too many monsters here to find im not alone im in a bind
so help me out i need escape im tired of this looping tape
so help me out or is it too late? is this my only possible fate?
take it or leave it
nothing gets any clearer
am i just an object
reflected in a dirty mirror
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4. |
other side of the mirror
02:31
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We lost interest somewhere around the equator
Im not sure who I am right now I think ill meet up with you later
Im tired of chasing dreams and the nightmares that chase me
Through a loop on repeat of this never ending symmetry
On either side of the mirror I think you lied and made it clearer
Im enjoying the ride but I feel the end growing ever nearer
Don’t scream I think a whisper says enough of how you feel
Ive been trying to make a difference but this simulation feels to real
Its been open for days and I think the blood has dried
Can you take it all away can you admit I really tried?
But the answers become questions to other questions without answers
Ive been spinning in circles and baby I’m no dancer
Lets meet again on the horizon as soon as the shadows leave
What im saying is don’t let them ever hear that you believe
Ive heard stories I cant divulge that im terrified to remember
Theres ways to defragment your brain they may leave you dismembered
But pull yourself together man this is no place to hide
Cant you see in their faces through their hollowed out eyes?
That theyd eat you alive you’re the most intriguing prey
They would proudly wear your hide but lock your bones away
Its been open for days and I think the blood has dried
Can you take it all away can you admit I really tried?
But the answers become questions to other questions without answers
Ive been spinning in circles and baby I’m no dancer
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5. |
almost home
02:49
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I can feel the spiders crawling across my eyes
I've been in the dark so long I can't comprehend the light
I'm looking for answers I'm not quite sure why
If I could start again I wouldn't even try
Theres things I've seen unfurled in front of me
That I could never explain and I want free
From the chains that hold my soul inside my body
What have I done to deserve this? I cant remember anything
Some things cannot be undone
No matter how hard you try, or how fast you run
Some things will tear you down to your core
No matter how hard you try, they just cant be ignored
I feel trapped inside this realm that doesnt make any sense
I'm looking for a way out, for a hole in the fence
I've found several wormholes to adjacent parallel existences
But I cant find the one where I think I might fit
The spiders leave my side I've never felt more alone
Than in this other universe where everything looks like home
But the pieces dont fit the puzzle, every face ive ever known
Just blend into archetypes they all fit in the mold
Some things cannot be undone
No matter how hard you try, or how fast you run
Some things will tear you down to your core
No matter how hard you try, they just cant be ignored
I can no longer feel the spiders in fact I cant feel a thing
I've noticed myself slipping so slowly away
I'm losing touch with myself I'm being perpetually replaced
By pieces I dont recognize this isnt even my face
Somewhere inside I feel a glimpse of what was
But its burning itself out now to ashes and dust
Blown away with the wind I'm not sure now what to trust
The particles that made me are dead and all I know now is just...
Some things cannot be undone
No matter how hard you try, or how fast you run
Some things will tear you down to your core
No matter how hard you try, they just cant be ignored
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6. |
take two of these
02:18
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take 2 of these every day
one before bed and one more when you wake
take 2 of these everyday
we'll keep upping the dosage until the problem goes away
Don't fall too deep into the machine
of the doctor wolf and his patient victim
don't lose touch with humanity
with a personality forged from a prescription
take 3 of these every day
one before bed and two more when you wake
take 3 of these every day
we'll keep upping the dosage until your brain melts away
don't get tied up in a bottle of false hope
chasing a cure that is kept out of reach
they debilitate your means to cope
while numbing your mind so you dont notice the leech
Bipolar disorder is a brain disorder that causes changes in a person's mood, energy, and ability to function. People with bipolar disorder experience intense emotional states that typically occur during distinct periods of days to weeks, called mood episodes.
so take 4 of these every day
2 in the morning and 2 more if you wake
take 4 of these every day
we'll keep upping the dosage...there is no escape
don't bury your individuality
in hopes of acceptance because pain is a muse
that builds strength and teaches us empathy
but our modern society would much rather be used
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7. |
the river knows
02:12
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Just how deep
Can you say you really sleep
In an atmosphere of dreams
Can you really sew the seems?
Wait and wonder
If you’re going under
Or waking up
And is it even enough?
I have felt entirely too aware
And I feel it needs to fade
Was I better off when I couldn’t care
And what price have I paid?
Just where am I?
Along this animated ride
That keeps repeating
And keeps me stuck in your dreaming
When will you wake?
And realize its all been fake
The reality you’ve built
Covered in the blood ive spilt
I have felt entirely too aware
And I feel it needs to fade
Was I better off when I couldn’t care
And what price have I paid?
Just what relief
Can you even offer me?
Its been going on for years
my Hopes been lost in your fears
so how soon is now?
Or should I just take a bow?
Turn the lights all out
Let my silence shout
I have felt entirely too aware
And I feel it needs to fade
Was I better off when I couldn’t care
And what price have I paid?
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8. |
10:24
02:28
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Are you a minute early or have you always been a minute late?
Do these disasters that you script determine future or does fate?
And how can you laugh at what you can't yet understand?
Or love such a thing you can't reach with your hand?
And how will, we ever know
if these distractions, never let us go?
Why ask so many questions when you can't answer the most simple yourself?
Has hysteria replaced the lack of accomplishments on your shelf?
Where were all these fears when they could have been a defense?
Now have you outlived your abilities and suffocated all suspense?
And how will, we ever know
if these distractions, never let us go?
Once again why ask questions when you don't believe in a reason?
Would any answer even subdue the curiosity of the season?
Do we wake in the same world in which we fell asleep?
Or is each waking moment now a new chance for relief?
And how will, we ever know
if these distractions, never let us go?
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